brain burst?

how come recently so mani pple or shall i sae passerby come to my blog arh? but nvm.. u guys are always welcome..

recently.. as usual, still nothing better to do will quarrel wif gf.. tat thursdae morning nearly broke up.. she asked me shall we seperate for awhile.. she is sick of quarreling wif me, so do i? actually shall we reallie break up or seperate for a moment? i reallie dunno.. actuallie i tink we should.. coz as wat she always sae no pt like tat or shall i sae always like tat.. we going to reach no where if this carries on n on n on.. but i cannot imagine my life without her.. i will go completely down.. she loves me? i dunno.. coz i ask her that question juz now.. she sae she reallie dunno if i love her..

her parrot or bird died juz now.. or duno recently when, she was sad, she was down, so was i.. i was there, wanted to share her down n sorrow.. she ask me to leave her alone.. wat can i do? ok yes.. leave her alone.. she happy now? i dunno.. coz i lessen her burden to quarrel wif me again.. maybe i m juz an ass looking for quarreling all the time.. y m i like that? i dunno.. call the doctor.. i be there soon..

realie wanted to share her problems, ups n down, but.. i tink my past record ain that good, so she rejected that offer.. i m feeling sad now.. who knows? listening to love songs now.. makes me feel like crying.. can i cry? no i cant.. man shudnt cry.. how i wish this is so private.. juz for myself to read.. i know this dun look the usual way i behave in sch or aniwhere.. but this is juz me.. i m human.. i do feel sad sometimes, a shoulder to lean on.. junna can i borrow yours? i know u will give it to me when u r in good mood.. but when u r not?

so mani pple feel like dying these daes.. zhiwei.. one of my best fren.. he told me no pt living animore.. coz there is no meaning in live.. we are born, get old, get sick, n die.. so might as well go earlier.. wat for work so hard everyone? all this stress wun be there.. my gf.. threaten to kill herself if i dun call her tat nite.. y that? is anithing that serious? juz a fonecall n if its not there.. bye bye she goes..

she reallie dunno i had this phobia? my ex died in the sucide manner.. she used that 5 or 6 times.. i cant remember.. so when is the real one? the next dae i got a call from my ex's dad.. he told me she killed herself.. her fren hated me to the core.. but we peace things off after that.. i was sad super sad.. that was extreme.. no one's been there.. so y my gf keep telling me she wanna kill herself.. can u please live for yourself.. not for anione.. she told me she is very tired.. tired of everything.. i give her a chance to leave me completely.. is not that i dun love her animore.. i love her too much.. till i m going crazy.. i m going to burst up.. anione knows? no one knows.. but now.. everyone knows..

i m tired..