first day of CT

juz wake up.. yesterdae went to sleep at 2plus.. but was coughing non stop, tossing n turning on the bed till ard 3plus den sleep.. actuallie wanna wake up at 6am to study.. den when i open my eyes.. how come window abit bright den still no alarm sound arh.. den i took my hp n check the time.. wah lan eh.. 7.15 liao.. sianz.. no need to revise liao..

got up.. rush to my bathroom.. do all the necessary stuff.. den got out.. style abit of hair.. den browse thru yesterdae wat i have revise.. (although nv go in) lolz.. but still to make my heart convince i did look thru.. lolz.. den hurry up to the bus stop.. den got up the bus all this.. ard 8, jiabin msg me.. where r u.. den i tell him i reaching ask him where is he.. haha.. i reached ard 8.30.. den kenna scold.. lolz.. tot u sae reaching? faints...

den got in the hall.. sit down.. wearing slippers n casual.. i was in seat no.1.. whaha.. den papers release.. mcq abit tough.. mcq shud be easy n shud score marks one.. but out of 10.. check wif my frens.. damn.. i got 4 wrong ans liao.. one question 3marks.. super heavy.. 12marks gone..
den section c, come out from the hall... my fren come tell me.. wah.. the ans very direct hor.. i c liao.. faint.. 8marks gone.. my ans not very direct leh.. lolz..

ther u go.. 20marks fly off.. tink no more A liao.. lucky this one oni common test.. hope can catch up in the exam.. at least learn from mistakes.. den got home after breakfast wif the guys.. reached home ard 11.. super fast.. den very tired.. went to sleep.. lots of fone calls.. kenna disturbed.. fren jio me go study n all.. but i tink i cannot go out study one leh.. den i tell him see how lar.. aniway i shud be studying... haha.. not in blogger typing all this.. dunno lar.. tomolo eg maths.. hope can do it.. dun make careless mistakes again pls.. ciaoz..

y haven study?

yesterdae slept very late.. i tink ard 5am.. whaha.. guess what m i doing? was scolded online by 2 gals.. one is prissy, one is christina.. whaha.. i oso dunno y leh.. watever they sae i tink i understand.. but actuallie i dun.. tink i was reallie childish n immature.. so i deserve it.. was very tired liao.. dunno y blur blur still stay online there.. let them shoot shoot shoot.. i tried to fight back.. in the end.. more bullets got into me.. whaha..

was pretty sad after seeing some changes made to something.. but after thinking carefully n not being harsh.. i need to be humble now.. n let nature take its course.. i made changes too, for the benefit of both.. time can u run faster.. very slow now leh.. wanna die liao.. u r my best medicine, but u are feeding me too slow... i cant heal myself..

aniway.. monday common test.. whaha.. yes.. haven study.. super lazy n abit no mood.. but i got fen choon.. later will study abit.. den tomolo will full shot my power.. whaha.. if cannot understand wat i study arh.. sure die.. seriously last min man.. GAMBATE! lolz..

later dunno going out or not leh.. someone juz ask me to save money for rainy days.. which is true lar.. must reallie spend slowly liao.. reallie spend money like water.. woo.. so fast.. whaha.. ok lar.. i go watch tv now liao.. later at nite confirm try to study abit if nv go out..

so stay chill guyz!

new look 2

yesterdae super tired arh.. den got abit of yao shuan bei tong.. den went to sleep.. wake up super tired.. den play need for speed underground 2.. was kinda hooked to it.. den actuallie meeting lex at 1pm.. was ard 1215 liao i m still playing.. whaha.. keep telling myself.. last race last race.. but cannot tahan lar.. keep playing till 1230 den go bath.. ok.. i was late.. but i arrived first.. he went to 7-11 to buy sweet.. he reallie love that sweet.. dunno y.. whaha

den our plan was like meet up for studying fundemental of quality assurance.. a module which seriously we catch no ball abt.. whaha.. den we went to millienium walk's burger king.. we sit there like less den one hr or ard there.. den abit no mood liao.. den we left the place.. hhaha.. go find my specs... ya specs..

whaha.. we arrived at YES, a shop in suntec full of glasses.. den i picked one quite normal one.. to look decent lar.. lex fall asleep while waiting for me... the person tell me y i need a spec.. i told her i cant see ohp during lecture.. den she sae.. okok.. den after everything.. she tell me tat she dunno do i reallie need a specs or not.. coz not very deep the degree.. in the end.. i take 50 deg one.. lolz..

aniway new look 2 liao.. first new look is my hair.. now i got one more decent look.. hoho.. but aniway.. still ugly lar.. whaha.. no difference.. post my spec pic up later.. been spending money going out recently to forget some sad things.. tink quite worth it.. but going bankrupt soon.. pls god.. donate some money to me.. need that.. to bring all my sad memories away..

tomolo still got sch.. so sleep early.. nitenite..

new look

yesterdae went to highlight my hair wif my classmates.. we reached far east den check out almost all the price in far east.. we went in to supercut.. den ask how much is to juz highlight a hair.. the lady there press the calculator.. den sae 100bucks.. den abit faint.. coz i need to cut oso.. if like tat i cut sure super ex one.. den we step out.. den walk ard.. went to junna aunt shop.. to ask.. den the price oso not very rite.. i nv told the uncle i m a fren of junna.. den tink oso cannto recognize me.. whaha.. nvm lar..

den we walk ard.. den see one shop quite normal.. den we went in.. den the person sae 65bucks.. for cut n dye or highlight.. den we oso abit sianz liao.. den we agreed.. whaha.. den lex was the first to dye.. the result.. not bad like go back to last time.. which is nice lar.. eric.. whaha.. 65 abit ex for him.. he highlight like nv highlight like tat.. tink he pay the money for learning how to style his hair.. den i was the third.. both of them.. guy help dem do.. den my was a lady... she cut like very pro like tat.. den got one time.. she pause awhile.. den check her fingers.. i tot she cut her fingers.. but she is ok.. nv sae anithing.. so i dun tink so lar.. the style i wan from the book is like totally different lor.. whaha.. only infront all gone.. my fringe all no more liao.. infront short short.. den after cutting.. she ask me how i wanna highlight my hair.. den i was like totally no idea.. den she tot of something for me.. den i ask her will weird or not.. if not juz carry on.. she sae wun lar.. more special.. den i juz go ahead lar.. den in the end.. wash my head.. lex n eric stared at me.. wah.. si ah beng... lolz..

haha.. i tink so too lar.. highlight quite alot.. but i itnk my money spend is more worth it.. coz change a look, which i needed lar.. last time my hair super long.. everyone was like saeing my hair like i wearing cap like tat.. den like very sluggish.. look sianz.. den now is like more clean n neat.. can see the whole face.. n at last my ear stud.. i oso like very long nv see my ears liao.. at last.. whaha..

den after tat went home.. bought some wrapping paper.. scotch tape.. wrap up a thing for someone special.. very difficult to wrap sia.. whaha.. but its the thought tat counts rite? but tink now the wrapping paper oso in dustbin liao.. whaha.. aniway.. study break liao.. super free liao.. its time to study.. next next week is common test.. i love test.. whaha.. tats wat i m paying my sch fees for(although not i pay lar..).. lolz..

den now juz got back from soccer at william place.. leg.. hai.. injured again.. xi guan jiu hao.. i tink i cannot dribble like last time animroe.. my leg i tink reallie seriously damage.. frens keep asking me go see doctor.. but i dunno wat doctor to see leh.. haha.. actuallie got no money to pay for those hospital.. later check liao.. sae need operation like wat weiliang told me juz now.. wah lan.. i rather stay this way.. maybe 1 mth play one time soccer.. den the leg maybe will improve by itself(fat hopes).. whaha.. ok lar.. tired liao.. go sleep.. everydae sleep at 2 -3 am.. wanna die liao.. nite pple.. tag more.. whaha.. n smile more :)

what can i say?

life is juz so unpredictable.. things u dun wan it to happen, happen eventually.. things u dream, u wish, does not happen most of the time.. y certain people know that their loved ones or themselves will be hurt when certain things happen, yet they still go do it.. y certain people know wats wrong n wats right, yet they still choose the wrong path?

read the story abt the leaf... it left the tree becoz of wind pursuit or the tree did not ask it to stay? what if the tree did ask the leaf to stay, but the leaf still leave.. izzit confirm that its definately of wind pursuit? or izzit of the leave is tired and wants to take a good rest on the ground.. only the leaf knows the answer..

i know you are tired, i m giving you a good rest now.. tat day was reallie unforgettable.. believed in everything you told me.. thats y i reallie took up all my courage to let you go tat night.. as people always sae.. wats yours is yours, wats not is nv yours.. if its yours, it will come back eventually.. no point hold n force.. tat will only make oneself or both parties hurt even more..

the tree cant find the leaf now, what can he do now? maybe nothing? maybe anithing? no no.. cannot be anithing.. if anithing, things wun have been this worst rite now.. maybe something? but what is that something? maybe time will be the best medicine to cure everything.. reallie hope tat by time to come.. leaf will dissolve(forget abt the past) n become a nutrients to the tree(start afresh?).. and they be back together?

by that time, leaf may not be a leaf animore..

maybe the heart of the tree..

2005?

ok well.. happy new year if u r reading this.. suddenly feel so stressed up.. todae got this test.. is like half of it dunno how to do.. abit disappointed.. damn the freaking teacher.. he dun teach us well, keep complaining we are lousy students.. dun take notes.. i tink as a good teacher, one shud not complaining abt their students.. they shud think of ways to help them.. well.. he did not.. he set a kinda tough test for us todae.. n well.. i tink none of the students in my class can do the whole of question 3.. so its like.. ya.. lets die together.. damn pissed!! nearly scolded him when he ask we guys to submit.. the duration for the test is like super short lor.. less den an hr.. den got 4 questions to do.. den keep mentioning we guys are lousy all this.. reallie cannot tahan..

now i tink my AD for this module fly liao.. this semester reallie very tough leh.. y like tat.. next week still got that freaking module project need to submit.. other den this i tink still got 2 more.. wah lew.. i cant breathe.. no ones there to accompany to go thru this stage.. y like tat.. y i feel so lonely again.. damn forget the lonely crap.. i tink i depend on myself better den anithing or anione else..

not reallie a good start for 2005..